I had to get up at 4:30 this am. I’ve had to everyday this week. It’s 9:30pm and I’m just now leaving the hospital. I have a cold. My throat hurts. I’m breaking out and the skin on my face and lips is raw from changing humidities and cold weather.  I’m ravenously hungry. My body is on the verge of falling apart and I don’t think I even understand “tired” anymore, because even though I feel a bit like a zombie, I am actually, in all seriousness, looking forward to spending my one day off studying tomorrow and jumping right back in the fire on Monday. I worked, hard, all week, doing my best to suppress a nearly overwhelming sense of incompetence. This stage of med-school is hard, because we’re expected to act like doctors, but really we’re just like Bambi when he first steps out onto the frozen pond; all legs and no feet to stand on. We’re expected to make assessments and plans that demonstrate a wealth of knowledge and good medical decision making, but we have no foundation of experience to draw from. It’s incredibly awkward, often demoralizing, and yet, somehow, I feel AWESOME. I am so excited to be where I am, learning what I’m learning. I can’t wait to be a doctor. #gpoy #words #medschool

I had to get up at 4:30 this am. I’ve had to everyday this week. It’s 9:30pm and I’m just now leaving the hospital. I have a cold. My throat hurts. I’m breaking out and the skin on my face and lips is raw from changing humidities and cold weather. I’m ravenously hungry. My body is on the verge of falling apart and I don’t think I even understand “tired” anymore, because even though I feel a bit like a zombie, I am actually, in all seriousness, looking forward to spending my one day off studying tomorrow and jumping right back in the fire on Monday. I worked, hard, all week, doing my best to suppress a nearly overwhelming sense of incompetence. This stage of med-school is hard, because we’re expected to act like doctors, but really we’re just like Bambi when he first steps out onto the frozen pond; all legs and no feet to stand on. We’re expected to make assessments and plans that demonstrate a wealth of knowledge and good medical decision making, but we have no foundation of experience to draw from. It’s incredibly awkward, often demoralizing, and yet, somehow, I feel AWESOME. I am so excited to be where I am, learning what I’m learning. I can’t wait to be a doctor. #gpoy #words #medschool

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  1. ameberry said: oh! and with some comfy socks and a big ol’ mug of honey + tea … tomorrow could almost feel .. luxurious? keep on keeping on, sister!
  2. section9 said: Props to you. You really are amazing.
  3. sharenitynow said: you’re like. real life greys anatomy. minus the having sex with all of the doctors part. orrrrrr not ? ;)
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