lunch today. it’s 79 and sunny. i’m in my car because our mailman brought us empanadas and arroz con gandules earlier today. and i’m stuffed. it’s his day off. he came just because. he had errands to run, and a day to do whatever he wants and he brought us empanadas. he is the best mailman in florida. maybe in the entire usa. there was a moment during bite three or four of the first empanada in which i wondered if maybe the food was poisoned. or tainted with something having a 6-8 hour delay. i wont feel the effects until i’m home. alone. ruby can’t use the phone yet to call for help. i’m going to be abducted. whatever. i finished the first empanada and then the other. then enjoyed the rice. i should mention i’m i’m balls deep in x files right now. season 2, episode 10 i think. so again, too stuffed to eat the lunch i brought, i decided i’d spend lunch in my car. i parked in the shade. windows down. fully intent on reading some more of ‘the casual vacancy.’ but i’ve abandoned that poor book. i’m so sorry, jk. i miss harry potter so much. i played more unblock me instead. intermediate level now. i try not to let them. but the puzzles suddenly become my life. if i can solve this puzzle, i’ll solve my life. shit will start making sense. i’ll find my way out. and i do it. i solve them. only to find myself blocked by aonther. life is perpetually puzzling.my grandma loves puzzles. we always gift her puzzles. birthday? mother’s day? christmas? puzzle! roadkill on the way to work today. i think it was a cat, but i’m not sure. i tell myself not to look back but i always look back. why? i’m going to see aerosmith with my cousins. i’m so very excited. they’re not playing on the radio. 99 kiss country.why do people say things they don’t mean? today is monday. and lunch is over. and i have to start making 1st filter interview calls.
my heart. oh my heart. and your heart. and all of the hearts. and legs.